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Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating

I bet you don't know me
Cassie Audrey FIFTEEN. TAKEN, 030211. 130297.


LJ is everything to me. I like novels & the colour blue. I give (o) fucks to haters. I always get inspired by passionate people doing what they fancy about. I like to say what's on my mind, whether it bothers people or not.
— Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close

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Monday, November 21, 2011
Heaven's ease

Real eyes, realize, real lies.



LJ darling, I have loved you for a thousand years, 
I'll love you for a thousand more.


I am not happy with my life right now. I am going to be MIA after this. LJ and I are breaking up. I told her about how I felt when she changed. "I change because I wanted to test you" she said. I didn't get her. I wanted her to explain more. But, I can't help it. I couldn't think straight. My mind wasn't functioning well cause of my massive headache. As hard as I try not to cry. I can't. Reading her texts made me so weak.
 "I want you to cheer me up like you used to. Look me in the eyes and tell me you're there. But, you're always too busy for me." I replied. November probably is a busy month. I feel like I'm abandoned by everyone else.  
Everyone is happy. I'm here handling this weight of depression. " I'm going through this alone. I'm facing all this by myself. " I told her. 
..I had no one else to turn to 

On 3rd of February 2011. 12am sharp. I remember fireworks. 
9 months 18days since it happened.  
Everything was going perfectly. I was never this happy. 
Everything with her looks so heavenly. Just a place where I would want to spend time, forever. 
I know I'm still young to be feeling like this.. But, what I feel is surreal. A mix of fact and 
fantasy. Nothing can be compared to this. 
Far from what I expected. Until this happen. 


There is a garden in every childhood, an enchanted place where colors are brighter, the air softer, and the morning more fragrant than ever again. -Elizabeth Lawrence

My garden had become a wilderness of weeds and bushes. -Me

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When it’s all said and done at the end of the day, I can say I made a difference in life. Although my behaviour becomes more and more unusual. 
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The sun was shining, but it wasn't that warm.
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Expectations is the root of all heartaches. 

 not gonna expect, anymore.. 
3rd February 2011, 12pm 
the highlight in my year of 2011
..I'm not ready to let go






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But baby, where they knock you down and out
Is where you ought to stay