Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
I bet you don't know meCassie Audrey FIFTEEN. TAKEN, 030211. 130297.
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Saturday, March 30, 2013
Heartaches all over again
This time.. Everything is ruined. Everything went physically and mentally to waste. It's over. I actually want this humanity to go away now. I don't want to love because everyone does it now. Everyone wants it. But I don't. Love is a beautiful thing. It happened, I saw it.. And then I woke up. I can't stand anymore pain. I can't help myself. I can't cry. I don't remember when was the last time I cried. I can't cry because I'm too weak. Too stupid. Because I fell in love when I wasn't ready. I want my old life back. When friends were everything. When I didn't know what its like to be out there.. I'm worthless. But I know I'm worth being lied to. I'm worth being cheated on. I'm worth everything except being happy.
I want to be normal again. But how do I be that when I'm trying to be extra-ordinary for you. So atleast my hardwork would pay off. But everything has now went to a waste.
I'm just so tired of everything.....
Friday, March 29, 2013
I turn out to be a horrible person/thing. What am I anyway. I'm un-human. My humanity in me isn't..in me anymore. I don't know where or how it went away. But everything that has happened was my choice. My decision. Why should I feel regret and feel bad about myself, right? I've been through worst. I've been more hurt than this. But what matters now is that, I won't EVER, I repeat EVER make the same mistakes EVER again. For I know how the outcome would be like... And I'm gonna brag about it for the next 816191628272 times. It's okay. Everything will be fine. I'm sorry for everything though "friend". Be okay, okay? Thanks for ruining my entire likely human-life. Fuck off.
Hello there peopleeee! After months of hiatus and I just came up with a sad story of my life. Like I just said "story of my life". So it's the Holy Week now.. Today is Good Friday and I'm fasting. I hadn't take my breakfast yet. But here I am on my iPhone blogging. Yes I'm blogging through my phone BECAUSE of some stupid reason the laptop made me made up. But whatever.. School is like starting again soon. Homework is still there laying waiting for me to do them. Yet..I am never gonna touch them. Haih. I'm such a bitch. I deserve to die maybe.. This is hard, life's hard hahahahaha. Oh god. Okay. I will be posting more often as I deleted my twitter account, and every other social networks as it is very stupid. Yes. I used the word stupid for twitter. It changed me a lot more into a badass bitch so..yes. I ended my life in twitter. And I guess that's about it for now. Gotta get ready to go to help some IUday decorations
Labels: Sad. Love. Hiatus. Twitter.
Thursday, March 28, 2013
In the most horrific way I can describe my feelings right now is by thinking what I should have done to make things right instead of putting myself into righteousness and be an egoistic bitch. I can never blame anyone for what I've done. Because stating the obvious, it's my fault. I know. But sometimes saying sorry doesn't make a change. I'm making a fool out of myself. I can't even stop thinking of how to make things right again after all that has been said and done? I couldn't bear with myself knowing I can never get back to the past and do what's right.
I've always wanted to be happy, be self-centered..well only because i was being to nice to people around me. And that is why i'm always hurt.. I don't want that anymore, you know. But me like this, it's just not me anymore. It's..hard.
Dear "friend", I'm sorry...... Please talk to me.
But baby, where they knock you down and out
Is where you ought to stay