Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
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Monday, September 17, 2012
She thought she had it all in her hands. She produced a smile that says "I'm fine". One day she got tired with all the multitude bullshits her surrounding gave her. She took a place at the corner of the room, looking at how everyone could be so genuinely happy. The laughter. She could just stare to mid air being alone. She hated being alone. But loneliness was all she had, and her journal. After seeing all of it, at the end of the day, she pours out all into her journal for she couldn't handle it herself.
She convinced herself that one day, she will find her Mr. Perfect. Who would always be there for her and everything would be fine. Now that she hasn't been keeping herself out of the typical society. She finally met him.. He brought her to her happiest pace. For the past 3 years after meeting him. She hasn't been feeling this much happy since ever. She was in Paradise. After all these while she was happy. She didn't know that she was suffering from a cancer. That could take her life away.. and there was no cure for it. She had been keeping it a secret right after she found out from the doctor. So that maybe she could at least still have the happy moments with him without him faking it.
As time passes by, her boyfriend realized that she was getting easier to carry. Getting more lighter. More pale than before. But by time he found out, it was days before she'd leave the insane world. He was so mad and hurt at the same time because she didn't tell him. He didn't know what to do. He spent every single moment with her, until it came to her last breath. Before she left him. She said;
"I'd never thought the loneliness in me would disappear. Not until you came..
I had no one before you. My mom died after she gave birth to me, and dad he died after 2 years
losing mom. I can't imagine how sad and in despair he was. Now I'm doing this to you, I'm sorry.
But for all I know, you're the best thing that has ever happened to me. I can't imagine where
I'm going to end up if it wasn't for you. I thank you for that. For the past 3 years, I had the
most uncountable memories. I don't know how to pay back. But I promise, I'll take care of you from
above with my parents. I'll tell them how good you were to me....."
As she finished saying those, she took his hands, she gave him something she has been wanting to give him since the day they met. "I love you, Stefan.." she breath her last.
But baby, where they knock you down and out
Is where you ought to stay