Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
I bet you don't know meCassie Audrey FIFTEEN. TAKEN, 030211. 130297.
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Wednesday, August 14, 2013
Good morning to everyone, wherever you may be. Since yesterday, everything had been productive. Because I had to do "kerja amal" for moral. Anyway, me and my dad. We cleaned the garage, put all those newspapers away. Sold them and made money too! Hahaha and then, today we washed the car. It's spotless although my dad claimed that he washed it alone(which he didn't, really). I helped okay. Give me a break *rolls eyes*
So! Today, hopefully I'll get to go my best-guy-friend(Khairul Nazmi Izzat Maksul hahahah!)'s house. Fingers crossed!
My skin tone are still uneven. Its so weird. I hate looking like a zebra. Damn i gotta do something about this... Hmm anyway i miss tweeting a lot. I miss my old twitter. But I'm just not gonna go back to that insane world of social. I can't. Its like ruining my chances of being happy haha. No really because you see, people judge you there. Cause they don't really know you, only through their piece of crap smart phones and laptops. I always feel insecure there. Never once I felt like anyone actually liked me..
Subject changed, it's the 924th day today. Never really thought it would go this long. But I'm happy.
Friday, August 09, 2013
"Oh yeah? Wow."
So it's Raya now. You see how fast the time has passed? It's so annoying, yet I'm excited for everything. Although that never made any sense.
I woke up around 9am today, got ready and went over to Keith's house for their new house warming. I still feel his sadness. Never was I his "friend" but now he's like a family to me. We all are actually.. Okay so his new house was better than before. The main reason why they moved was because generally to leave all their sorrows and hurtful and disappointments at the apartment.. Their new house was much better. The environment was calm and easing.. Uncle Adrian seemed much better now. Thank God. He's a good man. And so is the late aunty Nora, a very kind hearted lady. Rest in peace.
After going to Keith's house, I went over to Alyn's house for raya. First house I went for raya this year and first time celebrating raya with her. We had fun I can say. My other half was with me too. Although we had a bad night last night. I'm happy that syg never gave up on me.
First picture of me uploaded on blog for 2013. Hahah it's not that good because i took it by my phone. But there's that.. And the following picture is the room of uncle Adrian(he basically asked us to go in and have a look & he really didn't mind us in there). I just really love the way the room is with the view.
Monday, August 05, 2013
It's so hard because I have to keep up with everything, my life, my studies, my family and.. yeah you get the picture. I'm at the point of giving up and I honestly am so tired. I cannot do this anymore. I want a break. Let me travel for a bit. To at least go away from all these bullshits I face every single day. Can you imagine being so tired that you can't even sleep because when you do, your parents would just crank up and bitch about everything. So you can see that I had bad day today. I'm getting all these negative vibes everywhere I go. I think the only place I felt slightly calm was when I cried during shower. I don't understand how people can be so inconsiderate about some things. My mom is a great person but at times, I just really wish I could go far away from her so I just can't hear her nagging me all the time. Can I just move to hostel already..
I am nostalgic to do things my way. I mean, even if it doesn't come out as expected, but I know I did it because I wanted it that way, not because of others.
So I woke up early this morning, around 8 am and I can't believe how perfect the sun rays breamed through my window. It has never really been that way, and no I didn't take a shot of it because I think I got hypnotized by it(in a way). It really was beautiful. I wish I had someone there to share it with.. Anyway, I got out my bed around 10 am. That's normal, to me. I mean waking up but still laying down there waiting for nothing except to stare at an empty sides of the room. I only took my lunch today, so I basically skipped breakfast.
I wanted to do some of my accounts assignment but all the laptops in this house sucked so I had to install the software that'll make the laptop less-stuck-stuck hahaha. "we should send that for repairing instead of buying another one it'll just take up more space nanti not juga you guna if I buy you another one" said mom while watching her masterchef for the 4th time. I mean come on. The laptops aren't mine, I don't really mind keeping my own laptop in my room yknow mom. She's actually in dilemma whether to get me a macbook or not.
"You're someone that I'll treasure forever, dear. No matter what will bring us apart, I know I can't ever stop thinking about you."
But baby, where they knock you down and out
Is where you ought to stay